It's in my nature...

I'm such a worrier!! I don't if I'm the only one or if all moms worry about this but I have an uncontrollable worry that haunts me. I'm so worried about something being wrong with my baby. Like if he or she is behind the growth scale or just anything!! I just want the bean to be healthy! Maybe after I see the little tiny thing tomorrow, I'll feel better!

And speaking of.....

Tomorrow is the BIG DAY!! I hope we're able to tell what the baby is! Oh man it would be so awesome to know already!! If not I only have to wait another month. It just seems like forever! But at 8:30 in the morning Dewayne and myself will be headed toward Atlanta with out closest family and friends to find out if we're having a Jake or a Madelyn. I can't WAIT to find out!!

BBQ Chronicles

I wanted to do a timeline of my BBQ eats this past weekend:

Saturday, May 29th - 

I scarf down an entire Big Bob Gibson's BBQ Potato.
I purchase 2 bottles of Big Bob Gibson's white BBQ sauce.

Sunday, May 30th - 

I visit with dad and sister and her family. We order the BBQ special from PJ's.
I eat 2 whole BBQ sandwiches with cole slaw on them and persuade my dad to do the same.
I also consume leftovers later that day.

Monday, May 31st -

I stop at Green Top BBQ with Dewayne and eat a BBQ salad.
I also order 1 pound of meat to bring home.

Tuesday, June 1st -

For lunch and dinner, I plan to eat the meat that was purchased on the day prior.
I also plan to cover it in way too much Big Bob's white BBQ sauce, of course!!

Feeling better?

    Well, I surely don't want to jinx things but I have been feeling so much better!!! Sometimes I still get those feelings where the thought of food makes me want to just die. I can be thankful its not every night now! On our trip to Alabama this past weekend I ate NOTHING BUT bar-b-que. When I say that, I mean that aside from one egg and three pieces of bacon all of my meals were BBQ! (See: BBQ Chronicles) I FINALLY got to give in to a craving that had been just killing me into the ground (just ask Lauren!!) I got to get a Big Bob Gibson's BBQ Chicken stuffed potato, including way more than one person should consume of their white BBQ sauce! (I also purchased 2 bottles to bring home since GA doesn't sell it) On another note, I have been feeling way more heartburn. (I used to be one of those lucky people to never have heartburn, so now when I get it once or twice a week I consider it "way more heartburn!") Physically, I think thats all thats changing.

   Emotionally, I'm a tiny wreck. Several people in my family have told me that they think I'm going to be a good mother. GOD, I HOPE SO!! I just worry about everything. I'm thinking that every little move I make is going to have an effect on how this child turns out. That's scary! I just hope I do okay, thats all I'm asking.

   I'm pretty excited for next weekend. I get to make a trip to the ATL with some of the most important people in my life to find out what the little bean is. BOY OR GIRL!?!? I hope everyone gets to see he or she's little legs moving! It's the funniest thing I've ever seen! (Haha, yeah I'm going to be one of THOSE moms, YIKES!) Well, thats all I can think about to write now. Maybe more will come soon. Toodles!

What's behind door #2??

Today marks my 2nd Trimester!! Yay!! This one is supposed to be like a "second honeymoon." Before anything like that happens, this nausea and heartburn are going to have to pack up and leave!! I have been much less nauseous than normal, so thats a plus. And I'm starting to get a round belly. More so than usual!

To celebrate this new trimester, we bought a crib!! Babie'r'us was having a 20% sale so we decided to go ahead and get that big piece of furniture out of the way. It wasn't in stock so we'll have to go pick it up in 7 to 14 days.

I have an appointment coming up on May 24th. I hope I can see a good profile of the little bean. And on June 5th, we're going to be making a trip to the ATL to go to an Early Gender Determination appointment at a 3D/4D Prenatal Imaging place. I don't know if I'm more excited about finding out the sex of the baby or going to the Cheesecake Factory and getting a big, fat slice of White Chocolate Raspberry cheesecake. YUM!

Well, untill next time...

Williams OUT!

Stress..

I feel the need to destress my life. There is one particular 40 hour a week stress that I have. Something needs to give with it! I leave with a headache 5 sometimes 6 days a week!

Somethings this week that are making me extra nauseous are: Mexican Food (Just in time for Cinco de Mayo,) Eating dinner, bland food, and sweet clementines. I have been eating more sour food and the colder the better! I have noticed I have to have food with alot of flavor. For instance, Dewayne made some mashed potatoes and because they didn't have a strong flavor I almost got sick. I mean just the thought of them makes me want to gag. (He is a good cook, and I'm sure normal not pregnant Tonya would have loved them!) I really hope I'm like most women and my nausea goes away in a couple of weeks!

Blech

Not feeling it today. Not feeling it today. Not feeling it today.

I cannot believe it is only Tuesday. I am so tired!!! My house is a mess. The dogs were unruly this morning. Dewayne took a regular t-shirt to PT instead of a PT shirt so I had to take him one. It was so early it was still DARK! I might snap today. Oh and I cried like a baby on the way to work over a song, THAT I WILLINGLY TURNED ON!

FML

WHY!?

Why does it seem like this first trimester is going by sooo slow??? Oh wait, it's probably because the stupid Dr. changed my due date back 10 days!!! UGH! All that progress, LOST! On the upside, I'm going to eat tonight with the Smith's! Too excited for some yummy Guisseppe's pasta! Bring on the elastic waistband!